Pain in Jaw: 2/10
So i'm running out of things to write, since jaw surgery has reduced my social life to being non-existant. But i'm adamant i'm going to blog everyday, until I'm past the stages of recovery and I can relax a little. I'll only regret it in the future if I don't! So if i'm boring you with pointless posts; I do apologize.
Today felt like a massive battle with my brain. I went into town for the first time since surgery - a step up from ASDA I must say. Automatically I felt myself hiding my side-view face, as I usually would as discretely as I can without physically putting a bag over my head (especially when crossing roads), to then remind myself that i've actually HAD jaw surgery, and HAVE a decent side profile now, and I don't need to be so self-conscious of it anymore!
I remember once upon a time in river island. I hate that shop, and I hate it purely because of their changing rooms. They give an all round angle of your outfit, or in my case, your face. Everytime I walked in there I was more concerned with how awful my side profile looked, how set back my bottom jaw was, than the actual clothes I was trying on, and I longed for surgery to come! Well today I went into another changing room with similar mirrors, and it was incredible to be able to admire my face side on. I even called in my mum so that she could admire it too. (I did buy an outfit though which was infact my dress for my graduation ball).
I also feel like i'm having a battle with body, although I'm glad I went into town I really shouldn't have. Today i've been having extremely dizzy spells, to the point I feel as though i'm going to faint. I also had a weird breathing fit, I walked up a few stairs and at the top I couldn't breathe. It really knocked me back and I had to chill for a while. I guess I underestimated again what surgery in itself can do to your body AND energy levels.
Recently a friend asked me if i'd undergo jaw surgery again, as she said no to surgery a couple of years back, i've said previously that I don't ever want to, but what the heck. Of course I would! I'd do it all again. What the surgeons have done to my jaw structure is incredible, not to mention I can fit all of my teeth together comfortably now, and I feel my confidence growing more and more everyday.